Words Are Hard

They say that a picture is worth a thousand words, and I for one hope they’re right.  

Last night I had to make a really difficult decision and decided to walk away from Toastmasters for a little while. It wasn't an easy decision and while it hurts like hell I know it was the right thing to do.

I recently discovered that I actually like spinach as long as it's not cooked to the point of mushiness. The other day one the way home I was hungry and decided to swing by the store to pick some stuff up to make breakfast with and on a whim decided to make a breakfast burrito and add some spinach so getting some more veggies in my diet.

Everyday since they I have added spinach and mushrooms to some scrabbled eggs with a little bit of cheese for breakfast. I was hungry when I got home earlier and decided to make a couple of quesadillas for lunch. Normally it's just cheese but this afternoon figured I'd throw some spinach in there with it. Was actually kind of surprised how much I liked it.

Now I realize this might seem like kind of weird thing to share in a blog post but there is a purpose behind it...

There are so many things I want to be able to say.  To be able to express the thoughts flying around inside my head.  But words are hard.  And right now everything is so completely and utterly jumbled that not even sure how to explain it to myself.  Let alone anyone else.

These last few months of social distancing and quarantine have been difficult for everyone. Even now as things are starting to open back up the lack of structure and being able to establish a regular routine has been challenging on a good day.

Somedays finding that small spark of hope that gives you a reason to keep fighting is harder than others.  But today I wanted to take a few minutes to encourage you to simply remember HOPE: Hold on, Pain ends.

Today has been one of those days that, well to be perfectly honest seriously sucked.
A day where it didn't seem to matter what I did I couldn't find a way out of my head. The thoughts/voices were in full force and the jumbled mess inside my brain was wreaking serious havoc.
After a few hours of dealing with the massive yo-yo mood swings from Hades finally just needed to get out of the house and headed over to Red Top Mountain.  

I know it's been a few weeks since I last updated the blog. I am still working toward creating new content to share here. Living with a mental illness can be a challenge. The truth is some days are just harder than others whether you're living with one or not.

My original plan for yesterday was to go for a hike after church but it didn't happen. Instead I spent most of the day hiding out in my room, curled up under the covers and trying to ignore the taunts inside my head.

Embracing Change

Change is never easy, but it is necessary and inevitable...

Square Peg

Have you ever tried to write with your non-dominate hand? A lot of times that's what my life feels like. Especially when I'm trying to communicate effectively or build relationships with other people...

Social distancing vs. Self isolation

This time of quarantine and social distancing has been difficult for a lot of people.  But one of the things I've noticed in myself is there are times when I find myself wanting to complete isolate from everyone which isn't healthy...

Understanding Self-care

I know I've been MIA over the last few months as I've been dealing with some personal issues. But during this time of chaos and confusion created by the COVID-19 pandemic I've decided to work toward refocusing my energy on developing a video blog/podcast, which is something I've wanted to do for a while now.

Still in the early development stages and not as experienced with shooting video as I am still photography (not mention the editing process) but wanted to share this as I thought it was both important and timely: